Ocean and freedom.

I went to the same park we used to hang out.
Sat on the bench we used to make out.
Observed the same ocean we used to admire.
Because after all,
we both exist under the same sky
we both wish upon the same stars
we both breathe the same air.
It was enough for me that you existed under my sun.
You know, I wasn’t waiting for you to show up.
No.
I was waiting for my emotions.
To feel my heart in my throat,
hear the world quieting down,
feel the goosebumps on my skin,
lose track of time and space,
just like before.
And nothing happened.
I wanted
and waited.
All I felt was emptiness and freezing cold.
You
are
just
gone.
It would be silly to say that at this point I smiled.
But I really did.
Now, this IS freedom.